I'm Off!

I'm so excited! I'm packing to leave to go to Chad's family reunion! I've never been to one before, but I'm soooo excited! I hope I don't look like an idoit! Wish me luck! More details to come when I come back! EEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! So excited!!!!

'59 Diner & The Foundry Leaves Woman Scared and Nervous

This weekend was rather eventful, Chad and I went downtown. I had so much fun. First he picked me up, which was sweet of him and we were wearing similar colors (red, black and white). So we laughed about that for a while. I wonder if Alexis knew what he was wearing as she and Daphne helped me pick out the clothes for our outing.

We went to the '59 Diner and ate thier famous fried chicken. It was amazing. The matri'd thought that we were on our anniversary and brought over two glasses of sparkling champagne. Chad played along, but I was beet red. I think they realized thier mistake later when another couple the Vanderbean's walked in excited about thier anniversary.

We saw Josie there, she simply waved but didn't stop by the table. She had on a suit, so I wonder if she had an important meeting to go to. Later, during a dessert of vanilla creme layer cake, we saw David. I didn't recognize the woman he was with, but they didn't stay long. I wonder if Josie and David were spying on us. Hihi. It was funny (funny weird, not funny haha)seeing all the women swoon as Chad walked by...it made me feel special that I was with him...well not WITH with him, but hanging out with him...though I wouldn't mind being WITH with him...but...anyhoo... after dinner, we took some photos in the photo booth, I think Chad would win any goofy face contest. I got to keep the photos and they are now on display in my living room. Before leaving, we played a few tunes on the jukebox and danced to the oldies.

After that we went to The Foundry, a new club that is pretty...funky, but cool. We danced all night to this great DJ and we had drinks at the bar. Chad is a really talented dancer and he has so much energy! During the entire date, opps, I mean outing, (but I wouldn't mind it being a date) all I wanted to do was kiss him. But I couldn't do that and he didn't try, so needless to say, I didn't do the whole first kiss thing. *sigh* But boy did I want to. I actually wanted to do more than just a little kiss, I wanted the whole enchilada, kissing in the booth, kissing on the couch, everything. *blush* Anyhoo...

Upstairs there were some karaoke rooms and Chad convinced me to sing with him. So we rented a room and had a blast! It was the funniest thing you ever saw, Chad really got into the song and started dancing, I did a few moves too. Then we slow danced and I felt so warm and safe in his arms and well...I think I may have fallen in love.

More photos: http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/starrsim/album?.dir=f576re2

Which is exactly why I'm scared. I mean, we-Chad and I-haven't been on a date, yet I think I'm in love. Am I being foolish? Sometimes when we talk I feel like I'm the most special woman in the world. I think that we may be able to have a relationship. He invited me to his family reunion, you wouldn't do that unless you liked someone right? Then, I'm a little scared. Chad's a romantic and I'm more family oriented, can such a thing work? Also, there are rumors about his reputation, but no one will tell me any details-which makes me more scared. I feel like I'm moving too fast and not only am I moving fast, but that I'm moving fast alone. I don't know how Chad feels about me. Am I just a friend? A flirt partner? Something more? I'm scared to ask since...well, technically our talks and outings have been nothing but friendly. Jasmine says I should be more bold, but how?

Life Changes

*DJ (*not real name, I don't want to blab thier news to the world when they haven't done so) is engaged...wow...it all seems so fast, but apparently they've been dating for a while. It made me think about the future-I try not to since...well, I'm not dating anyone and I don't want to get my hopes up. However, I do want a family, the whole white picket fence, husband and 2.5 children and a dog-well, not exactly, but I do want children and a husband-I don't know how many ... when you're trying not to hope about such things, you tend not to dream about them in detail.

What I need to think about in detail is what I'm going to wear Friday! Chad and I are going downtown to hang out...it's not a date...well, he didn't say it was a date...I wouldn't mind it being a date ^_^ but when you're going downtown to eat with a popular guy you can't assume anything or hope for too much. Anyhoo! We're going to eat at a diner-The '59 Diner-and try thier famous fried chicken and vanilla cream cake. Then we're going dancing at this new club called The Foundry. I'm so excited, I can't wait! I shouldn't be this excited, but it's getting harder and harder to contain myself. Everytime I see a post from him I get all giddy and start dancing. Jasmine says that he must like me, but...I don't want to assume and get hurt...Josie says I should tell him how I feel, but...gosh-that's hard! It's not very easy to go to a guy and say 'by the way, I like you, will you be my boyfriend-yes or no?' lol! Things were a lot simpler when no one paid attention to me. Back to the issue at hand, I need something to wear, something casual, but dressy, something sleek, but laid back. Guys have it so easy-pants+clean shirt=outfit, I have to think pants or skirt or shorts? What about a dress? Long or short sleeve shirt or tube top? Jewelry? Purse? Makeup? Ayiyiyi!!! I better call Alexis, she'll help me, she always seems to wear the right things.

It's funny, I live downtown, but I haven't truly explored it yet. I don't have a car yet and things have been busy on the set, but now we have a holiday while they edit the episodes. I've already visited the park near the condo-I think it's called North Central. There was a free concert and bonfire. I had fun and even had a cup of mocha cinnamon espresso with whipped cream topping. It was yummy. Then as the sun set, the bonfire started and I enjoyed telling stories and roasting marshmallows with the others who had come out for the event, finally the band started. They were decent players, mostly a college rock type sound. Afterwards I went home and chatted online with Jasmine before falling asleep.

Took advantage of my day off today, I went to a free lecture at the university. A famous resturaunter was speaking and I got some really good notes. I want to start a resturaunt, but am saving some money first. Hihi, maybe a 'Russel' (like from Pahala Shore) will come into my life and fund the resturaunt, lol if Russel looks as good as the one on TV-I wouldn't care what 'Russel' did, as long as he came into my life!

It's a Wonderful Life...or is it a Dream?

Lalalala!!! I'm so happy! *giggle* Things are going rather well, we have another break from the set-this time for editing and making sure the actors have a real life. I'm not sure when we're going to be called back to start filming again, but I'll be busy in the meantime. Chad and Timothy and David are helping me move my furniture into my new place-the old condo was condemned and we were forced to relocated-something about bugs on the lot. So I have to arrange furniture and redecorate, thankfully the city is reimbursing us the cost of relocating and redecorating. To be honest, I like this condo better, it's cosier and smaller. I still have three levels: the bottom level is a carport, kitchen and living area with a door leading into the front garden (which is bare like the other condo, but at least it has grass and a small tree), the second level is the entry level and living area with a bathroom and balcony overlooking the street, the third level has two bedrooms and two bathrooms and another balcony overlooking the street. I think I will try to see what can be done about having a balcony overlooking the park instead of the street. I'm not a huge fan of looking into our neighbor's yard when I relax on the balcony. There isn't a community pool, so I'll probably buy a hot tub.

I'm glad to have made so many friends from the set, Josie said that filming for soap operas is a lot different than movies. On soap opera sets the cast becomes like a family since they spend so much time together, but on movies sometimes you don't get to know your other cast members very well. I remember when I first arrived to the set, I was so confused. First, Chad and the actor that plays Randy look so much alike! Fiorenza did a good job with casting them as brothers, it's amazing! Then of course there were all these amazing celebrities and I didn't know their names at all *blush* I felt bad, I think I called Alexis 'Anna' and Josie 'Jenny', then of course there were some cast members who were not so nice and that wasn't that hard for me to get used to since I've experienced my share of not so nice sims :

I invited Chad over for dinner...um...just for fun...uh...anyhoo. Before he arrived I spent about two hours getting ready, I mean, how does one dress when having guests over for dinner? I couldn't call Jasmine since she was busy filming her other project, but I was able to get in contact with Daphne and she calmed me down. Apparently she and Alexis were together and so they came over. I wore the brand new shirt that Alexis helped me pick out and some new jeans and they did my hair and make-up. I'm glad they came over, it calmed me down a bit and allowed me to relax. Gosh, I'm sure I'll be a complete mess once I host my housewarming party. So a few minutes before Chad was scheduled to arrive, things wentbut then my stove wasn't working so we had to eat pizza. I was so embarrassed. I had a delicious menu in mind, yummy cajun spice roast turkey with garlic potatoes and buttery chives beans. But instead we had lukewarm pepperoni pizza at the bar in the kitchen. Thankfully he was a good sport about it, laughing and joing about how my pizza tastes very similar to PizzaDeliverZ's pizza. He brought over some great music, I plan on buying the CD once I find out the name of the artist, and we danced on the balcony and he even taught me how to slow dance. I was so nervous, I thought I would step on his toes or something, but he was so sweet about it.

I don't know why I was so nervous, I mean...I do know...ugh...I never ever felt this way about a guy before, well I have, but I didn't do anything about it, I mean...that was high school and he would have never have been with one of the 'rejected' girls. The only reason I invited Chad over was because Jasmine encouraged me to, I probably would have been content to simply leave things as they were and admire him from afar, but...Josie says that life is full of risks so I am trying to put myself out there more...but it's scary...especially when you've been hurt in the past. *sigh* I'm not saying 'woe is me', I've been blessed, there were other homes that were much much worse so I was lucky to be in such a good orphanage, even now I have a nice job with a nice paycheck, a nice home and I'm making good friends. Sometimes I wake up at night, expecting everything to be a dream and for everything to disappear in front of my eyes.

Crushing

Things are going well. I finished the living area remodeling. I am very proud of my work. The living area has a modern japanese style like the rest of the house. It has a traditional screen wallpaper, but one wall I put up this pretty sage green wallpaper to highlight the painting I found at a local merchant. Josie helped me pick it out and she picked up some things for her house as well. I got my furniture delivered from Around the Sims 2 and even created a custom rug. The living area is a combination of white, sage green, and pale birch wood. Very relaxing, I love coming in the door and sitting down, gazing at the view of the park and having a cup of herbal green tea. I think I may be in the 'zen' zone :]


Ok...I must admit, I have a crush. I feel awful since he's obviously the favorite amoung the women in the cast and more than likely will be the favorite amoung the women in the audience. He's cute, dashing, great personality, everything. *sigh* To take my mind off of things I called up the local matchmaker and set up a blind date (you can see her in this photo as well as my condo in the background). Needless to say, it didn't go too well. First, the guy was an elder, second he was the local matri'de at Lulu Lounge who has a reputation for hitting on all the waitresses, third...it was boring. He wasn't exciting, I mean, we talked about food for a little while, but then he...well, he assumed that I wanted to go home with him, ewww!!! I don't know if I'll do the blind date thing again. Perhaps I should take up some hobby...like knitting.

Speaking of hobbies, I talked to the Josie about my love for cooking and she recommened that I find a good accountant and think about starting my own resturaunt. She said that it would be good to have my hand in other things besides acting since sometimes the jobs are few and far bewteen. She then told me how she has a few other projects, including simoleans from a lipstick named after her. I hope that I can become a famous star one day. But I guess I don't know what the future holds. I know that I want to get married one day and then I want children one day, but I have no clue when that one day is. It's nice listening to the older sims on the set talk about thier lives, Josie showed the cast new photos of her daughter-Blossom. She's child now with bright blond hair and sassy attitude it seems-perhaps she's destined to be a star. Ruth talks about her baby, Alexis gushes over her twin babies and David seems to be the proudest papa on the set, he and his wife just welcomed thier third child and you can tell that his children are his joy. It's funny watching Jasmine during these talks-obviously it bores her, I think she rather be discussing the newest club. Hmmm...I wonder why she doesn't open her own club, she obviously knows how to party. I asked her for help in throwing my first party. Once my condo is completed, I want to have a party for the cast and other sims I've met

I talked to Chad on the boards, I'm waiting for him or Jasmine to post me back. Jasmine is in the midst of filming her second project, some type of reality show with her best friend from home. My cold is better, thanks for the wishes, o! I must go pick up the new magazine, Star. One of our writers is helping to write the magazine, thankfully I probably won't be in it, I'm not famous enough yet :]

Vacation WooHoo!!!

I finished the filming for my final scene. The production company has the cast filming in five episode blocks on the shooting schedule and I completed my final scene so now I have a nice vacation until filming for the next block of five episodes starts.

I'm going to start the renovation and decoration of my condo. I can't wait. I already picked out some furniture and wallpapers and floor tiles, so the contractor is going to come and install everything. I want to personally do the garden which is simply a pile of dirt and concrete. My inspiration for my home is modern japanese, so I suppose the garden will be very similar as well. I'm looking for a sleek wooden bench, not those english garden benches, but a japanese style bench. If you see one, let me know.

Things are quiet around the set-Jasmine flew back to Simmington to film her other project, Josie and Roxy are both done with filming, in fact most of the cast is done with filming until the next block of episodes begins. I posted a note for Chad on the SUN Boards but I'm not sure if he'll respond. Sometimes I think he likes me as I catch him staring at me, but I could be wrong, sometimes when you have a crush you get delusional and every little gesture becomes a way for your crush to express his love. A lot of the cast seems to think that he's cute and since he's single and very...captivating...well, I wouldn't have a chance...but it's nice to dream.

Since I live next door to Fiorenza it's interesting seeing her visitors come and go, I must admit that sometimes I'm so curious I wish I had binoculars to spy on her-but I'm sure it's not that important. But it is intriguing especially since there are rumors that her family is the head of the mafia, perhaps I should try NOT to see anything.

Finally A Home

I signed the papers on my first home. I'm excited and nervous, but mostly excited. My contract gives me §15,000 towards the purchase of a residential lot. I chose a nice sky blue condo downtown. I share the property with non other than Fiorenza, the producer of Pahala Shore, so that should be interesting. We share the common outdoor areas-including the pool, barbeque and bare lawn that I plan on renovating into a grand garden. My condo has three levels, the basement level includes an one car garage and basement kitchen/dining area and a half bath. The first level, where the main entrance is located has the living area, full bath and balcony overlooking the pool and downtown views. The third level includes three bedrooms and one full bath with access to the roof.

I have some renovation plans in store for the condo. First of all, I'm converting one of the "bedrooms" into a full bathroom, then I have to decorate-which I'm leaning towards a modern japanese influence, then the balcony rails are so high and thick (for privacy the real estate agent said) that you can't see into the pool or the surrounding downtown area. And the views here are really nice. On one side of the condo is a beautiful park which I'm just dying to visit and take a walk. On the other side is a famous resturaunt that is uber expensive, but I'll visit one day-maybe if I win some money during our casino outing.

I have a cold, so I took some medicine and am taking it easy. Drinking lots of juice and sitting down and napping as much as possible. Egh, the cast members keep getting sick, I think the producer and director will eventually send us all home for a few days to make sure the virus doesn't keep bouncing around. I suppose I could browse some internet stores for some furniture. It feels weird to spend so much money, but...I'm trying to enjoy things while I can, but not get into trouble...

Until next time

Reflections

Things are going well here. Did a bit of filming and it was ok. I was nervous when I did my scenes with Josie-she is so professional and she makes everything seem so easy. I can tell you that Josie plays my teacher in the series. I wish I knew the future of my characther, but the producer will only give me the latest script or two. So the most I know is what will happen two-three episodes in advance. It is amazing since the producer knows exactly where Sierra is headed and the director coaches us on what we have in store.

Jasmine and I have been hanging out, her suite is next to mine, so we sometimes eat dinner together and talk-when she's not on the phone with her boyfriend. I wonder if they will get married. Besides Jasmine, only Daphne, Timothy and Chad are without immediate families. Alexis has her twins and her boyfriend, Josie has her daughter, Ruth and David both have families back home.

I'm enjoying my break and drinking some tea and reflecting on the day. It was a busy one-Starr Grey visited the set to bring her granddaughter in for her scenes. She's a nice woman, all the cast seemed to be in awe of her. Apparently she is this famous movie star actress. Unfortunately, when you don't have TV or simoleans for movies, you're not aware of these things. Well Josie offered me some videos with Starr's work and after viewing them I see why the cast was in awe-she's amazing. She really commands the screen, maybe I will be as good as her.

I think I will take up meditation, Daphne said she will teach me-that should be nice. Right now Alexis and I work out together-she says she has some baby weight left-but I don't see it. In the mornings we alternate with running on the treadmill, yoga or video exercises. The studio has a personal trainer at our disposal, so that's nice, but hard. All that personal attention means you can't slack off.

Well, I'm off-talk to you later

Hello All!

This is my first post on my first computer! I finally brought something with my cheque from Pahala Shore. This computer was on sale, so I got a really good deal. Now I need to find an apartment-I don't know how much longer they will let me stay in the studio suite. It's very comfortable-but then again, anything is comfortable when you've been used to sleeping on couches and under bridges.

I'm still in shock about the recent turn of events in my life. One day I'm cleaning toilets struggling to feed myself, the next day I'm acting on the set of a soap-as one of the central characters-go figure! I'm extremely thankful though, just being able to have this job-it makes a woman hope for the future...but anyhoo.

Working on the set is fun, I want to do my best so I've been studying my lines and doing research at the library concerning native american issues and trying to understand Sierra's personality and background. So far I know that she was an only child raised by her grandfather on a reservation. I wonder what it's like to have a grandfather-or a family for that matter. I lived in an orphanage all my life until I became an adult and had to leave "the system". I'm the second youngest on the set, Jasmine is a little younger than me as she just had her adult birthday. Most of the other actors have children and families-but they don't look old at all. Alexis said that she is going to take me shopping for clothes once filming starts-I just hope they're not too expensive, I'm not used to paying a lot of simoleans for clothes-heck, I'm not used to paying simoleans for clothes, my wardrobe consisted of one outfit for school and another outfit for elsewhere. Sometimes if we were lucky at the orphanage we would get donations from some kid's rich parents who felt bad for us and there would be these nice belts and purses and sometimes some jewelry. I wonder how the other girls are doing.

Well, I should prepare for the cast photo shoot, we're going to the beach to take photos in our swimsuits-the set location is beautiful, Bottom Beach is very close to Apple Valley-it's actually considered a part of Apple Valley, but it's still a short ferry ride away. I will have to get a map directions are sometimes confusing here. I know that Apple Valley is west of SimCity and Bottom Beach is south of Apple Valley and downtown is to the north of Apple Valley and Muscon Desert lies to the east of Bottom Beach...I think.

Until next time